Day 8, TURN THE FUCK AROUND

Holy fuck. I just had a session where I thought I was doing awesome and finished the session to find myself down again. I really don't fucking know what's up. I hope I'm just running bad but fuck it feels like it must be something else at this point. This is a fucking pain in the ass. I know there's spots I'm giving up because so often you're just flipping a coin and it's pointless to flip coins in a game that doesn't have tiered payouts.

I probably won't continue with the DoNs after I get Supernova, I'll almost positively go back to the 9-mans. There's less of ceiling and there aren't as many regulars. Even an idiot can figure out how to beat DoNs. The average fish could break even if they used their fucking brain.

I'm gonna log more games later. It's all I can do, press on. It's so fucking annoying getting to a point and not being able to climb over that point. I'll just play through it. Nine days of play left of this month, let's fucking hope I can move up at the start of December so I can at least book less volume.

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Well, things continue to go bad. I'm playing sloppily now and that combined with playing more tables and running bad is a terrible combination. So here's my thoughts.

The volume is probably getting to me, so I added more tables, which is lowering my skill level significantly. The epic downswing caused me to play more tables hoping to get out faster but it's just been a roller coaster up and down.

I can drop back to playing fewer tables, focus more, and continue playing continuous sets at the $50s. Or, I can drop back to playing fewer tables, play numbered, non-continuous sets at the $100s with a HUD. This will lower my volume per day, it will let me achieve more balance with my daily routine hopefully. I'm rolled for the $100s so that's not a major concern. If things go poorly, then I might sweat a little bit.

I was really hoping that after digging back to almost even again last night that today things would go well and I'd finally be over the initial hump I came to. That obviously wasn't the case. I originally moved to the $50s with fewer buy-ins than I'd be moving to the $100s with. With any luck I'd run well and get my focus back and end the month on a plateau. Worst case scenario is I go on a massive downswing and have to swallow my pride and grind it all out at the $50s playing fewer tables and dedicating more time to studying.

I feel my edge would be a bit larger in the $100s also because I could afford myself the time to play numbered sets and thus use a HUD. I can't afford myself to play numbered sets at the $50s and as a result can't use a HUD since my system bogs down when running a HUD and playing continuous sessions.

There's always the option of not trying to get Supernova this year, but that doesn't sound enticing at all now does it.