Early Realizations

Yeah, I have those.

Things have been going great with poker, crushing pretty hard right now, running hot. I played a set today that I ran really hot in to start and then like a slip n slide in the opposite direction throughout the middle and to the end. Just kept grinding, logged a solid 3 hour session and posted my first losing set in awhile. That's poker.

I've started focusing on learning cash games, of course still studying my bread and butter game. I watched some PLO videos but I found myself really grasping at some things. My poker game isn't where I want it to be do get good at PLO so I'm gonna learn NLH cash games first. I've been watching some videos, reading some articles, going to start logging hands sometime soon.

Life is becoming more and more about poker, more than it ever has before. It's an interesting transition. My love for the game hasn't been at this level in a long time. I enjoy logging hands. I enjoy studying. I enjoy helping others with the game, helping dudes who brought me up at this shit. I enjoy being able to finally give something back to these guys, offer my opinion and don't feel like it's half bullshit. I feel confident in offering my opinion on hands and feel comfortable bouncing ideas about things back and forth with people.

But I'm also lost socially right now. I'm really a fucked up case. I can't relate to anything my friends are about really. It's a really strange thing. I'm trying hard, but I'm just not a guy to get slaughtered beyond recognition every weekend and spending the first half of the week recovering. I can have fun without booze, but it seems like some people can't.

I'm young, I want to have a great fucking time with life and make money at the same time. I've got the world before me, I can carry it on my shoulders or I can lay that shit out like a carpet and make it mine. There's absolutely no reason for me to not take it for everything it has to offer. We only get one shot at this existence. It's a bittersweet truth that makes life so priceless and worth experiencing, and remembering.